W

Here stands a traitor to the true
Oh, how I did not want to
Oh God, I always do
My whole life has come unglued
The false in me is breeding true
For I know now what I do.
How could you have paid this price?
Must I once more spit on Christ?
Must I again take his life
Betrayal with addiction's knife?
I know in truth, all that remains
On down this road I'm on is pain
But I know, in point of fact
That somewhen I signed the devil's pact
And I can't fight my way free
Though that is all I long to be
To place myself in hands of Three
And unsee all that I have seen.
Unthink things that I have thought
Watch my actions come to naught
To feel relief that I'm undone
Before I reach what I've become
Am I yet too late to kiss the Face
I've spat upon and I've disgraced
Have I gone too far to leave behind
The addiction that has left me blind
To all the ways of God and good
I do nothing that I should
Oh God, I'm a disgrace to Thee
I only ask, could you unmake me?

V

When I am but sin
My veneer wearing thin
How can I make right the places I've been?
When all that I've wrought
And done comes to naught
How can I redeem these things that I've thought?
When I've only done wrong
Death etched on my bones
How can I, how can I ever atone?
With my soul all but gone
How can I go on
An offkey pretender, singing God's song?
Who can I be
When all that makes me
Is all that I do not want you to see?
Can I change who I am
Does choice make the man
And should I change what I choose, could I change where I stand?
And God, could you care
Sweet Jesu, be there
Could you remake what lies broken and scared?
Put your mouth on mine
Hands covered in grime
Resuscitate a failure, time after time?
Would I be free
What would I be
If I could love you as you have loved me?

U

How do I picture the Faceless?
Answer Truth knowing I'm graceless
A stumbling soul in human form?
How do I answer the Ageless
When I'm both dumb and outrageous
A lie, wrapped in theft, tied with scorn?
Why is my guilt so contagious
That I'm even ashamed of the Shameless
As though He accompliced my sins?
How do I pray when I'm scared of the day
That I'll be revealed with my sins washed away
To have been nothing more than a fraud
That there will be nothing left there to laud
Indeed, nothing left there at all?
How do I kneel before ultimate Real
Knowing the blood that drips from my heels
How do I try and swallow my pride
When humility means walking beside
The Greatest, Creator of all?
How can I believe
When all I've achieved 
Is rendering the Infinite small?

T

The infinite became finite
As the endless found end
Power became pain
As perfection felt sin
Life became death
And the Certain, unsure
That death might find failure
That good might endure
The Great became small
And the Greatest of all
Became love, wrapped in cloth
And laid in a stall
The Unbound was shackled
And then nailed to a tree
That tomorrow might come
That Hope might be free
The King was dethroned
And the Cure became ill
As Love became hate
That hate might be stilled
And so it was
So it is, and will be
That death finds defeat
In Love's desperate plea
That doubt finds it's answer
In Hope's final ploy
That God became flesh
That a soul might know joy.