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I've never been lonely before,
So why now?
Why am I suddenly wondering how
I could have failed at things
I don't believe
Failed a God I've just wondered about?
I've never been lonely alone
So why care?
Why am I suddenly aching with prayer
Moaning and bursting that someone be there
Am I scared?
I've never missed anyone
Now I miss dreams that aren't mine
The idea of hearts so entwined
Feels almost wonderful, almost divine
But I can't stand being touched
I've flat-lined
Somehow into this place
This strange palisade
Of mistakes standing guard
While failure parades
All about
In this game of charades
Am I this, maybe that
The parts that I've played
Meant nothing at all
The paths that I've strayed
Merely left me betrayed . . .